How I unlearned everything I thought was wrong with me and how you can too.

​I used to think that the way my mind worked was back to front compared to other people. And yet I still managed to (somehow) do well in school and university, and in working life without ever really knowing how...

I'm not saying I was dysfunctional, I wasn't. I was (and am) different though.

I heard things said in class in a different way.
I remembered different things than the other students.
I had a terrible memory yet I was able to pull things out of my mind when I pictured the scenario it was said in.
I didn't see the point in a lot of what I saw as pointless 'doing' such as science experiments when it seemed that we were just going through the motions to get to the answer we all knew was coming.
I didn't get why people would have to say the same thing over and over just in different ways and with different words. Why was there always so much talking and so many words?
I didn't react emotionally in an appropriate way. I didn't get sarcasm. And I was just generally quite often confused by people.

So I kind of went along life thinking that I had better just keep this all to myself.

No point in saying out loud what I had heard when everyone else heard something different in conversations.
No point in saying 'Ok I've got it' when I was supposed to listen to whatever was being said over and over in different ways.
No point in giving too many ideas for fear of looking crazy when all the ideas weren't perfectly ordered or organised.
No point in describing to someone what something could look like since mostly they didn't get the 'picture' of what I was saying.
No point in telling people why I would laugh to myself quietly at things said because I was picturing hundreds of different possible hilarious scenarios.
No point in showing everyone that inside my head, I was actually weird.

Instead I learned to hold my breath at school to stop myself from bursting out laughing at inappropriate moments.
I learned (or at least tried) to bite my tongue when I knew something being said was a lie or wasn't true.
I learned to work slower when people would say I was making them look bad or accuse me of making them wrong for not doing enough. Surely I was accusing them of something when I was fast and being as intense as I naturally am?
I told myself I must be the messed up one and since everyone else looked like they had it all figured out... it was me making things up in my head.

Then one day a brilliant man showed me that he too thought this way. And not only him, but a lot of people in the world. He invited me to not only stop shutting that down, but to become more of it...to use it more, to develop that way of being, and that way of receiving information. He showed me how much of it was a capacity... and that was just the very beginning.

As I started to unlearn/stop believing everything I had decided was wrong about me, something amazing happened... I started to be more of me. I got happier. Things got easier (even if sometimes it made people uncomfortable) and the choices that I thought I never had now were available. 

What if you could unlearn everything you think is true about you?
And everything you think is wrong with you?
And everything you have decided is your biggest fault?

These are some of the questions you can ask yourself when the wrongness vibe kicks in!
 
- What's right about me I'm not getting?
- What's right about this I'm not getting?
- What am I aware of here?
- If there was nothing wrong here, what capacity would this be?

What if everything you've decided is a wrongness is a strongness yet to be uncovered..?

XO
Diva

Join me and Gary Douglas, the brilliant man that continues to show me a different possibility in the area of X-Men and labels of disability for a 3-Day Access Consciousness class called X-Men: Creating The Real Future. it's on the 13-15 April and you can join live in Houston, TX, USA or via Online Live Streaming either from your own Home or with a group of people in a POD.

These transformational questions come from Access Consciousness, which to me is truly the treasure trove of tools that so many people are looking for. Visit the site and delve into the fun and amazing resources here.

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